Unavoidable Commentsts

WHEN WE HAVE  FLAWS EMBEDDED WITH US , THE SHADOW OF INSECURITIES FOLLOW US EVERYWHERE WE GO. NO MATTER HOW HARD WE TRY TO BE OPTIMISTIC , CRITICISM FROM THE SURROUNDING PEOPLE TRANSFORM US BACK TO PESSIMISTS.

I have always tried hard to forget my flaws of face whenever I interacted  with new people. But the harder I try, weaker I become to face them.  The more I try to ingrain positivity in my thoughts, the more I get the feeling of negativity from the gossips of people around me. 

The more I try to remain with ordinary feelings, more it becomes sophisticated with   outrageous comments from the people around me. To remain in one position is inevitable for all of us and when I am travelling with flow of life wind that takes me in any direction it prefers without my consent, the journey is not just an ordinary. I come across multi-characterized people whom I can't even explain why I actually try so hard to make myself presentable in their eyes. 

Do you believe me when I said that Life is wind?Do you know how much I struggle even to speak  a word with you?Do you know how breatheless  I become to console myself every after encounter with new face? Whenever I encounter new faces, I do  assume thousands of negative comments from them before they could even think of my disfigured face. I get scared with what they will talk about  my face. I spent hours and hours in front of mirror to make myself look presentable in front of new faces but when I reach in front of them in person, I always feel  low and concerned with my face. 

Meeting new people is inexorable and even rejuvenating my normal brownish fair face is also irrevocable.

I always make sure to stand myself strong and firm to face them with defect on face but back in my mind, it automatically reminds me that I have flaws on my face. 

If my face had stayed as normal as before, my life would have been completely different than what I am now.  I do smile everyday to confirm that I am moving on with life but not whole heartedly. I do survive each day but not openly. I do live life the creator has offered me but not with satisfaction and confidence. Is  flaws on my face a gateway to my success?? Is an insecurities  in my emotions, a entry to my dreams?Is criticism I am facing now, a road towards strength?  Is stigmatization that I am suffering through my face, a way towards my destined world?

I had been searching answers optimistically for almost 7 years with imperfections on my face.I am still searching the solutions and the purpose of glitch of my face. 

BUT I ALWAYS STAND STRAIGHT, HEAD HIGH AND CONFIDENTLY LIVE AS IF NO COMMENTS  OF PEOPLE ARE BOTHERING ME EVEN THOUGH IT SHATTERS ME INTO PIECES EVERYDAY.